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Just needed to share this
Something Is Amiss
Maybe it’s just me, but there are times when I feel like there is something not quite right in my life. There are so many questions running around in my head that I have a hard time getting them in line. The doubts are there because so many questions are unanswered or ignored. Which keeps me going through the motions when I need to be able to move ahead. Whether it is with him or on my own I can’t move forward without answers even if he claims this stuff is in the past. To him the past is a couple of hours ago. To me it isn’t the past until a situation has been dealt with and by not getting answers prevents a problem from being dealt with. Therefore something is amiss in this relationship I am in.
I lay next to him right now and two things come to mind… I love him deeply… I refuse to continue with the same lies as truth. I literally want to slap him and demand the freaking truth. Yet, violence gets me no where. I just think it would make me feel better. I just want the damn truth. I want my questions answered. I want the power to move forward. However, I can’t do that while so many questions surround the past.
If you don’t have anything to hide then you should be able to answer some questions without getting angry. If you get defensive every time I try to approach the subject then you are saying to me, “I’M GUILTY, but not going to admit it.” When I know things and confront him he tells me I don’t know what I am talking about. Even if I have proof he does the denial game. It’s just old.
There’s something amiss and I’m tired of the game. Ready for a future, but first I must get past this pain.
Who Am I?
I don’t even know who I am any more. It is like I’m lost inside myself… Struggling to find my own wealth. I feel so frustrated by everything. I feel like I just exist in the moment and that I am not where or who I want to be. I feel angry, cheated, and less than I AM. What do I need to do to get me back? What do I need to change? I am not able to keep going on this way.
Wake up, wake up !!!
I wish I didn’t have to, but it is a must. If I could be asleep right now I would be dreaming of a distant island that has the world most coziest bed with me nestled deep within it. But, I am up, for no reason really, just laying here. Wake up, I really wish I could. Better yet, I am going back to bed.
Speak Life into your very life. If our thoughts become things then I must change what it is that I think about. For the same way I got here I can get can and will be how I get out of here. With that being said the very least I can do is try because I know I think a lot of negative thoughts even though I really don’t want to and I can say I have had more negative than positive out about. Therefore, I choose to speak life into every area of my life.
I speak wholeness into my spirit, soul, heart and mind. I am in perfect harmony with the Universe to accept all good things unto myself. The spirit within me knows and loves peace. I give love to all those that are around and I receive much more from them. I am a magnet for my soul mate. I am drawn to him and he to me. The Universe is conspiring to bring us face to face and heart to heart tonight. We will allow love to be our hearts guide. My mind is able to envision clearly and in accurate detail the very things I want to attract to my life. I see my soul mate coming to me to comfort me and be here for me in this time. I see my soul mate Tony M. P. Williamson Sr. knocking on my door and wrapping his arms around me whispering that he is here for me. I ask the Universe to bring about the very things I think about in rapid time.
I speak life into my being. I am always happy. I have happiness that no one can steal. Joy overflows from my heart, spilling through out every crevice of who I am and into every area of my life. I make others smile and people make me smile. I know that my life is a reflection of true love and laughter. I am so grateful for all things in my life for they shape a better me tomorrow.
I am smart, qualified, determined, and very productive in my college courses, my job, in my businesses, and in my home. I am a honor student. I am an achiever of accolades. Everything I do financially brings about great gain I . My bank account are overflowing; prosperity is attached to me. I have a great home that people find comfort and solace in. I make good friends. With those I encounter I leave positive lasting impressions. I am forgiving of others and others forgive me easily. I reflect good things because I am everything good.
The law of attraction works. I know I attract all good this and I magnify what I want from the universe into being. I am focused on bringing about all good things into my life and the life of my soul mate. I am beautiful and I am vibrant. My family is blessed because of the law of attraction in my life. There is so much abundance in my life that I freely give to others expecting nothing in return. All that I desire is mine…
WHERE IS MY HEART NOW
WHERE IS MY HEART NOW THAT HE’S NOT WITH ME? I WONDER IF HE FEELS THE BEAT ISN’T THERE NEXT TO HIM… HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE WITH ME… BUT WHERE IS HE I AM LEFT HERE TO PONDER. LOST IN THIS DARKNESS, NO WORDS REALLY TO SPARE. JUST CONFUSION FILLS ME. NOT SURE WHERE I AM TO TURN OR WHO I CAN TURN TO. JUST WORRY AND STRESS… HELL HAS FROZEN OVER IN MY HEART. JUSTICE ISN’T SERVED… NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND THERE IS NOT A ME WHEN HE IS GONE… THERE ANI’T NO SUNSHINE WHEN HE’S GONE.
Breaking me has finally happened. I am probably fixing to crack to a million tiny pieces. No one will miss me or even realize I am gone. Why should anyone care about me… I am NOTHING. I am dumb and stupid. I have lost everything. There is nothing left. Not even myself likes me. I want to just fade to black, die… yes, i should.
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